A look into the Future

I'd like to shar a scary picture with you all.  I was just, for fun, looking through the diagram pictures on Baby Center to see what I'll look like (approximately) when around full term.



As you can see this is a picture with Twins.  This is at 36 weeks Gestation.

Of course I had to see what I had looked like with Logan, or a single baby.....



Here, as you can see, is a diagram of a woman pregnant with 1 child.  And I thought I was uncomfortable before!

Here we go, times two

I’M PREGNANT!  We are so excited and have been since we found out.  My hyperemesis has come back with a vengeance this pregnancy.

 I actually ended up in the ER last Thursday afternoon.  They did an ultrasound to see how everything was going with the baby and make sure it was fine.  It was.  As I was laying there with my legs spread for this stranger to look into my uterus to see this little baby all I could think was “I just want to go to sleep!  I want to curl up in a nice warm blanket and go to sleep!” 

It was then that the ultrasound Technician that was getting a little close and personal with my lady parts asked if I wanted to see.  I looked up.  She turned the monitor around for me to see the baby and this is when my whole life changed!  “Here is your baby.” She said as she pointed to one of the black areas on the screen, “and here is baby number 2”, and pointed to the other black area on the screen! 

Yep, TWINS!  I just started laughing after I think saying O my goodness, O my goodness a few times.  Why laughing?  Well that’s easy.  Because when I was pregnant with Logan everyone and their mother thought I was having twins because of how sick I was, because of how much I showed right away, and just because they ‘had that vibe’.  It became the running joke with Dustin and me.  Even the Midwives asked if I was sure I wasn’t having twins’ because of how sick I was.  I just said “If I’m having twins, then you ladies missed something!”  Then because a lady that I work with had a dream about me a few days after I told her I was pregnant.  She came to my desk and said she had a dream that I had twin identical girls.  I just laughed and thought ‘here we go again’.  So it again became mine and Dustin’s joke.

When that technician told me I was having twins my life changed at that very moment.  Now we aren’t just going to be a family of 4 but a family of 5, 1 more then planned.  We will be buying two of everything…at once.  We will have a 2 year old and then 2 newborns.  Life will be crazy.  Life will be hectic.  Life is changed.  But life has also just gotten better and more interesting, for what is better then one baby?  Two babies!!

Overnight?!?!

I am having a little dilemma.  Most will not see this as such, but I do.  My in-laws want to take Logan overnight this Saturday!  This comes at a time that Logan is waking every 2 hours (I still can’t find a reason for why this is) and I am getting little sleep at night as a result. 

Why is this a dilemma for me?  Well, because it’s already hard enough to be away from Logan all day everyday while I’m at work…then to give up a whole NIGHT without him.  I will miss him terribly.  I will be beside myself when I wake up in the middle of the night, waiting to hear those little pleas on the monitor from Logan to come and get him to feed him and put him back to sleep. 

What would I do with a WHOLE NIGHTS SLEEP?  It’s been so long since I’ve had such a thing.  Most think it’s been just 8 months since I had my last full nights sleep, but that is a dream.  Logan has always been an early riser, since about this time last year!  He would wake me up at about Midnight and then again around four in the morning when I was pregnant!  Let me tell you, things haven’t changed much since then.

So the obvious answer is to let his grandparents take him for that single night, that one night that I can snuggle up with my husband, with no monitor on, and sleep the whole night threw (though I know that won’t happen, my body is just too used to my current schedule).  The obvious answer is to let my boy have one night away from his parents now, so later we can take a trip (after his first birthday) without him and it won’t be a completely new thing for all of us.

So it sounds like I have made my mind up, I need to let go, I need to let my boy grow up a little bit more, and I need to let someone else care for him for that one night.  OH, it’s so hard to do this, but I know that I must at some point.  So, anyone out there going to be up at three in the morning on Sunday (Halloween)?  I know that I will be.  I’ll be waiting for those little pleas from the next room and trying to tell myself to go back to sleep and enjoy this treat of a full nights sleep.

The Brain Balance Achievement Center

Autism runs in my family. My Father has Asperger's. My 16 year old brother has Asperger's as well. My 6 year old brother has Autism. Two of my cousins have Asperger's.


Needless to say, I do what I can with Logan to try to see the signs early, if at all. So far I’ve been fortunate enough to not have to worry about this yet with Logan, and I hope to not have to in the future.

The truth is that there are several families that have the added obsticle of Autism, Asburgers, and ADHD in their lives.

I was recently contacted by “The Brain Balance Achievement Center” and asked to post about their FREE Parent Lecture incase any of you might be interested in going.

When: Tuesday, October 26

7-9pm: Dr. Melillo's Talk for Parents

Where: Valley View Middle School, Edina, MN

Description: The author of the bestselling book "Disconnected Kids" will be here in Minnesota speaking to families of children with neurobehavioral disorders.

RSVP to: excelsior@brainbalancecenters or call (952) 474-4535



Here is a little bit about The Brain Balance Achievement Center:

The Brain Balance Achievement Center, a new learning center for children with learning disabilities such as Autism, ADHD and Asperger's will be opening in Austin. Brain Balance Achievement Centers offer the Brain Balance Program® in more than 30 nationwide locations. The Brain Balance Program® is an individualized and comprehensive approach to helping children with neurobehavioral and learning difficulties surmount their unique challenges. This proprietary, non-medical program has been successful in helping hundreds of children reach their physical, social/behavioral health and academic potential. Please take a look at their website: http://www.brainbalancecenters.com/