I QUIT!

I QUIT!  Or at least I wanted to.


I know that there are good things and bad things to being a working mom and to being a stay at home mom. Today it seems like there was more bad to being a working mom. I feel left out of things, like I’m not there to se these milestones that my little boy is going through.

Dustin was home with Logan this morning before he had to drop him off at his mom’s in order for him to go to work. Dustin messages me on my Blackberry “He just rolled over from his back to his tummy and then back again.” Then I get “He just did it again.” Then a little later “He did it AGAIN!”

I have never seen this happen yet. I’ve seen him roll from his tummy to his back, I’ve seen him roll from his back to his side, but never have I seen him roll from his back to his tummy let alone do the full circle several times.

If this wasn’t bad enough I missed some more action as well at home today. You see we leave our patio door open much of the time so our cats can go in and out as they like. And on days that are really nice, well, we just love to have all the fresh air coming in. In an apartment all that you get is recycled air from all of your neighbors, so the fresh air from outside is a must!

Well Dustin had the door open, but just enough for the kitties to go in and out. I’ve always though that the following would happen, and I knew that it would be exciting but I NEVER thought that I would miss it.

A bird decided to invade our home! That’s right. He found that little opening in the door, flew right in, went to our kitchen, circled my husband and then did a sudden U-turn for the door again. Apparently he knew he was not where he was supposed to be. On birdie’s way back out he missed the opening in the door and hit the window instead. He bounced right back off the window and tried again, this time going out the way he came in.

As you know, we have 3 cats (one is sick and locked in the bathroom though so he doesn’t pee everywhere). Gizmo and Renny were going crazy apparently! Once Mr. Birdie was gone Gizmo just sat at the door on high alert and watched everything, waiting and daring Mr. Birdie to come back and attack his home and family again, he was the protector.

As you know, I saw none of this myself, though I can picture it all in my head, especially Gizmo the Guard. I heard all of this from Dustin. I’m glad that he told me, but still, it would have been so much better to just be there and actually see it.

I guess that’s just how life is, missing things in order to help provide for the family. After hearing all of this within the first 3 hours of me being at work I just wanted to walk right over to my manager and say I QUIT! right there on the spot. Did I? No. I’m more sensible then that. I know that there will be other opportunities for me to see Logan rolling over and for other bizarre things to happen when I’m around (like the time Gizmo attacked a Siberian Husky right in front of me!). So for now I will just have to sit by and be content knowing that life is happening, and that it will still go on whether I’m there or not, and I will eventually be able to see my little boy hit his milestones (even if I am the last to see them).