This weekend is going to be a bitter-sweet one. It always has been. This is the weekend that we are going up to the cabin/camper to close it for the season.
Usually I’m sad, depressed, and not looking forward to not being able to go up north any longer until next April or May. This year, I’m so HAPPY to be doing this.
This year I’ve learned to dread going up north. It used to be this place for us to get away. Dustin would work on whatever needed to be worked on – the camper, the cabin, the landscaping, building a new cabin, building a shed, putting in driveways. I on the other hand would relax – lie in the hammock and take a nap or read, cook, take a walk, go for a lazy swim or float on the river. This year Dustin still did everything that he previously did, while I on the other hand didn’t see him at all and instead played with Logan (which of course I love to do, but I do need a break sometimes), changed diapers (which is fine, but could still use a break from as well), still cooked, cleaned even more then I ever have before, and just whatever else you can think of that was NOT relaxing.
In the end, going up north was more work then it used to be and even MORE work then it would have been if Logan and I would have just stayed home. It got to the point toward the end of the season here that I did ALMOST a few times just tell Dustin to just go up on his own and we’d stay home. I decided against doing this just because I still wanted to see Dustin even a LITTLE bit.
I know that my in-laws thought I was crazy this year. I even got a few of the ‘looks’ of “crazy person, stay away” or “OMG, THIS is what Hope is now that she’s a mother?” or just “Why do you even come up if you don’t like it here?” Most of these were when I was ‘yelling’ at Dustin to PLEASE spend time with Logan and me, or to “Hurry up; I have stuff I need to do at home!” on Sundays in the late mornings early afternoons.
It was true though, I did have stuff that needed to be done. Does everyone think that Logan’s food just magically appears in the freezer in Ziploc bags? Does everyone think that a Leprechaun comes and cleans my house when I’m asleep? Does everyone think that the diaper bag fairy comes and organizes and restocks Logan’s diaper bag? Does everyone think that I can get everything I need to get done at home done magically while I’m AWAY from home? WOW, if so then I must really fool everyone. I’m stressed and burnt out on all of these things, but I still do them because it’s what’s best for my family.
Now that the up north season has ended though I will have the time to do what I need to on these weekends. I will probably still be stressed, but not as much. I hope that I won’t be as burnt out, because now I’ll have more time to get everything done. Now I will be able to see my husband on the weekends that he isn’t working on adding money to his paycheck. Now we will be able to get things done at home and will have time together as a family. Oh how I have longed for these days back.
First though we have this weekend to contend with. We have a camper to pack (so basically a second home to pack). Dustin has an outhouse to move for his uncle. I have cooking and cleaning to do…and the BIG TIME cleaning so we hopefully keep the mice out this winter. All while taking care of Logan and trying to entertain my little nut. Plus, we want to try and leave early on Sunday to get home to GET THINGS DONE AT HOME!!
Oh what a weekend I have in store for me!
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